In silence

I have always prided myself as strong
I have been to many battles all alone
I won and went through many fights
And it was always I who gets the prize

Yet, tonight I know I lost.

Tonight, I admit defeat
And I step down from my lonely peak
As my tears mixed with the misty wind,
With only my pen and my paper that understands.

Long have I wanted for you to see
That my laughter only masked what I truly feel.
That my night screams of you.
And my heart bleeds for not having you.

Know that despite what I show there's always what I hide.
Behind my laughter, inside I cry.
Despite my denial, its always been you
And though I tried to let go, I just don't have the courage to.

But everything must end.

And these tears that I shed for you.
Will continue to just hide,
Because tonight I surrender myself to the truth
That an US will continue to exist
Yet SEPARATELY.