Its all my fault

Everything was peaceful
happy
loving
normal

But then i came along
and everything became hell
there was fighting
yelling
anger

i was so young and small but i caused so much pain and torment
i lost my father and it was all my fault
maybe if i wasn't born everything would be fine
i wish i could have a normal family
wake up every morning with a mom and dad saying bye to me when i get on the bus to go to school
then come home to hear
how was your day dear

but i know that it will never happen
i will have to take care of myself
I'll have to watch my own back
yes i will be helped through all this
but what will happen when i am on my own
i will be there fighting on my own

i really do think i was all my fault and i think everything would be so much better if i were DIED
i am so sorry for the pain and torment i have put my parents through
they say that i was the best thing that had happened between them
and when i came only pain and suffering came with me
i am so sorry
i really do think it was all my fault