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by Becki VanHegan Oct 11, 2007 category : Sadness, depression / about depression
It hasn't always been this bad... i haven't always felt like this... but recently thing have been getting me down, depressing me even more like at the flick of the switch my emotions are scattered the fluctuations, the balance out of proportion i cant seem to stop the tears flowing from my eyes, to* why does all this s**t happen to me as if i don't have enough to deal with with my "friends" school work deadlines GCSE's coming up soon... how could i forget? but whats the point? with my mind a mess and my emotions everywhere there is no way i can even try and concentrate on anything can't anyone see what this is doing to me can't anyone see the pain I'm feeling? does anyone truly believe me? i suppose a lot of people do lie about this for the attention but i am not one of those people i don't see how people could lie about something like this they dent know how it really f**ks you up and its usually the people who have a constant smile on their face or are usually "happy" or "hyper" that are they f**ked up ones the ones that have problems lying so deep within them its too hard to extract that from them its a part of them its who they are now mentally f**ked, emotionally scarred and sometimes with a hint of physical scarring too