I try to alleviate myself
Because Im alone, and have no one else
I feel levity for he is not here
And why he left isnt clear
Even though he was contemptuous and disdain
I still loved him, and he was mine to claim
He would beat my mind, soul, and body
Even when I had nothing, I still felt no animosity
When I pulled myself away
I was yearning for him every day
When I flinched from the scars he gave me, people grew suspicious
I would just explain "Its nothing, hes just cantankerous"
With watchful eyes boring into my back
Cover up and security of him I could not lack
I felt the need to protect him, and to save me
I would just tell myself "Others just cant see"
People didnt understand what Robert and I had
People grew belligerent when they saw me sad
Another slap, hit, and punch, causes fake smiles
Slowly dying inside all the while
Finally I spoke my voice, yet I was afraid as hell
"Dont you love me Robert?"- I felt another lash as I fell
Tears that drop on the floor turn red
Continuously wondering when Im going to be dead
So after then, I was taciturn
I did not want to feel the volume of his voice be stern
I kept silent and endured the pain
To me unconsciousness was mundane
When I grew numb, he leaves
My sorrows and sobbing I would appease
Now and then I feel antagonism
For the one person who took my innocence away; him
