Never will I try again

For me it's the same. The same, each passing day.
I use a smile, to hide my happinesses denial. Everybody thinks I'm so vile. Well, at least I smile, Even though I may not mean it. I laugh and Try to act normal. But I lie.

I hide my emotions behind a cheesy smile. God, I can't stand it anymore. I defied you all, lied to you all. I'm always tired, from staying up late, crying, deciding my own fate.

I pretend to be happy, by acting hyper and laughing. But you all hate it when I'm hyper. Maybe I'll show them whats behind the laughing, the joking, the smiling. All of it. I'll show who I really am. But I swear you'll want the old Tiffy back.

No more jokes will I crack. No more laughs will I laughs. I'll never once more smile. I'll barely talk. I'll walk away, once you call my name. I'll sit in the corner on that small stage. Never once will I be fazed, by cheap imitation of my life's haze.......