Anger and Pain

Some people dont
understand the problems
people go threw.
Everyone i kno
thinks im so happy,
But im really not.

Let me explain...
i dont kno my
biological father.
The person i live
with just turned to alcohol.

It seems like everything
is going down the drain.
I feel like im losing
the one i look up to.
How did this all come about?
I dont have a clue
But i want to find out.

I worry about all of this.
Its causing me a lot
of pain, hurt, disgust in myself.
Why did they turn to alcohol?
Goin out almost every night.
I sit up and worry if
something has happened.

If everythings is okay.
Things not getting paid.
People not going to work.
What can i do im only 16.
How do i make things
go back to how they were.

Granted a single parent
raising 4 kids.
I have to keep my job
to help w/ payments.
I gotta watch my siblings
and go to school
get good grades.

We barely get things
paid even though we
get assistance.
Too many what ifs.
Too many stresses.
Too many worries.