I cant have you

You are the one i cannot have
i reach for you with these out strecthed hands.
i only scratch just your skin
only to retreat again.
why i keep returning here
to the only place that i fear
is when i lose my friend so dear.
to think that i may have known you
if only that were the truth.
and when i see you i feel your pain
and it seems to grow everying waking day.
all i want is to see you smile
even if its just awhile.