On the inside

On the outside i look like I'm living but on the inside I'm dying a little at a time. on the outside i look OK but on the inside I'm being buried alive, I'm so afraid to let the inside of me show to the outside. on the outside i put a fake smile on and laugh a fake laugh but really on the inside crying in my cell. on the outside is what everybody sees but on the inside is what i want most for people to see and maybe they wouldn't judge me. on the inside I'm tearing myself up all because you said i was a disappointment. on the inside i want to be like i use to but the inside of me has been hurt to much to go back to what it was. I'm counting down the days till my outside is like my inside. to where i will no longer live in emotional pain.