Fall Back Into Me

We ran through the dead city streets, holding hands,
And as the sky fell down around us, we trembled,
Afraid of the end that we both knew was coming,
But our vulnerability kept us hanging on to nothing,
For far longer than we should have.
I stood so close to you, I could almost breathe you in,
And I can say with much needed composure now,
That I`ve never tasted something so sweet.
Your heart was beating against mine as you sighed,
Stammering through the howls of the heavy wind,
And you told me your compassion for girls like me,
With a crystal tear veiling over your blue eyes.
I stood in horror as I watched you fade away from me,
Just a shadow now, a mere memory cast away at sea,
As the waves took you down and drifted you away.
And I watched you smile tonight from this pier,
Holding myself weightless against the sailor`s sky,
Strewn out across the shore, I walked alone,
Searching through the light for something I`d never find.
I could swear I seen you standing ahead of me,
Smiling in all the sincerity you could muster up,
But as I ran, I listened to the rhythm of my feet,
Resembling my heart beat so much, racing, racing.
A silhouette: that`s all that you are now, lost in time;
And as I swallow my misery down I build some pride,
Just enough to walk away from the anguish you left,
When you turned around to walk out on me.
We spent the nights breathing, counting our heartbeats,
To see how many we could take before we fell back,
And I got to one and picked up the phone to call you,
Maybe just to hear your voice, maybe for a little more.
But as you talked, something in my head clicked,
And I knew that I was just a replacement while she was gone,
She was laying beside you right then, holding you,
Like I had done for so long, for so long.
And I know that it`s kind of cliche to say this,
But I`ve never felt this way before, it must be love.
And conversations slur through my head as I trace back,
To the beginning, when we stood at the end of the world,
Holding each other for the sake of being held,
Death was so close we could feel it, it was in our hands,
And you looked at me, with your heart in your throat,
As you etched words into my hollow chest,
"I`m sorry, but she grows on me. I can`t do this anymore".
I haven`t forgotten the feeling when you left me there,
With the sky closing in around me, killing me softly,
And I hold onto this broken hope that you`ll come back,
Someday you`ll fall back into me, fall back into me.

-Jenna Elphick
October 12, 2007