Bigger, better and worse

You are so beautiful
with the most beautiful name
i wish i could have you
and to be the one in your arms,
you warm embrace and lovely smell
i only wish that you could tell
that i love you
i really do
but if i i could never tell you
for i might get laughed at
or who knows what else
so i am writing you a poem
i hope this explains how i felt

now i have moved on
my heart still not fixed
from the pain you caused it
the pain you did
you laughed at me;
and made me cry
you called me names;
the names you could never deny
you hurt me deep inside;
in places i tend to hide

now i have moved on
to bigger, better and worse