This River is Wild

Staring out into the night
I cannot help but think of you;
Of all the times spent together
And all the awesome things we used to do.

I feel emotions
Building up inside.
My tears give away
The pain I try to hide.

Talking about you seems so hard -
I cannot stop the tears falling from my eyes.
It seems that each time I mention you
There's nothing I can do but cry.

He asks me why
I feel this way.
I wish I knew
Just what to say.

Spending time with a therapist
Trying to explain how I feel
Just keeps reminding me
That all this hurt is real.

I suddenly burst out
In uncontrollable tears.
Crying in front of someone -
One of my worst fears.

"He's just not worth it,"
Colin gently says to me.
"He will never be the one
Who will make you truly happy".

Again I start to cry -
He speaks the truth.
Of your feelings for me
There is no proof.

My tears, a river so wild,
Ceases to come to an end.
I cannot do this anymore -
I can no longer pretend.

You don't love me -
I don't think you ever did.
Of this pain
I want to be rid.

As I wipe away the tears
With the tissue handed to me,
I remove the 'love dust' from my eyes
And now, I can finally see.

No more pain.
No more lies.
These tears are last
That'll fall from these eyes.

CopyrightJosieWentzel12October2007