All I want is a sign of kindness and love,
But all I get are mean looks.
It hurts so bad that everywhere I go,
Hoping to be accepted,
I get rejected.
They all look at me the same way,
With eyes full of contempt and resentment
But maybe I deserve what I get
For being a cruel, cold person
I drove everyone away from me,
But only lately have I realized that they were never really there for me,
Each one had hidden intentions,
All meant to sacrifice me-
I feel so empty and numb,
So lonely and dejected
Everyone says they love me,
But I know better than to believe them
Broken promises and rushed lies,
To cover up their faults,
And I stand here,
With my heart in my hands
Bleeding, nearly dead,
Yet how is it that I'm willing to let it get broken again?
I know it won't survive another wound,
So how is it that with you
I'm willing to take that chance,
When I'm pretty sure I won't survive the fall?
So much pain,
Leaving me numb,
My heart shuts down
Yet I'm able to love again
Will you be the on to show me what I truly want?
Will you help me soar or let me fall?
Will you be there forever or for just 10 seconds?
I'm terrified to love againâ?¦to let my heart open up,
But I don't want to missâ?¦all that I could spend with youâ?¦
No, even if it doesn't work out,
It won't be time gone to waste,
For I learned to love once in my life for the last time..
