Trying to trust

Ive spent so much time trying to trust again
but it always comes flying back
it drags up so much pain
then i have to start over
maybe i should just stop trying
keep all these feelings to myself
there isn't much point in lying
i know trust means nothing to anyone
trust was what made me stronger
at the same time it made me feel bad
so why should i try any longer?
i could end all the suffering now

saffie
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16.2.05