Here's To You; And To Me

You said I never do anything right,
That I'm spineless; I'm weak.
I never seem to please you,
But you've made me hate me.

You don't know how hard I try,
I want to make you so proud.
But once again, I screwed up;
I'm sorry I let you down.

Your words crawl into my skin,
Sucking my blood until I'm dry.
What happened to loving me?
And comforting me when I cry?

I don't know what to do anymore,
I'm as helpless as you say I am.
But I cant fix what I've done,
You don't seem to understand.

I've lost my reason to believe,
And my will to care at all.
I hold so much self hate and doubt,
Isn't this what you wanted all along?

I don't know who I am anymore;
In the mirror, a stranger stares back at me.
So there you go, you win;
I hope it was satisfying to watch me bleed.