You won't know, when I decide to go

When i call you're never there
is being with me too much to bear
you say you care
so why aren't you aware

when i bleed you're always gone
what do i do that is so wrong
i wonder how long
until i belong

when i cry you're always away
or is it that you don't want to stay
you always stray
its always that way

when i scream you're never near
do you not see a single tear
cant you hear
all my fear

when i die you wont know
i know does not show
but I'm so low
i have to go