Silent Suicide

Here I sit,
Alone in this dark never ending.
My heart is throbbing,
And I just cant stop loving.
I wish I could just let you go,
Wave goodbye.
Call it quits,
But that would be a lie.
Because I cant stop loving you.
Youre part of my heart now.
Please come back, or Ill die silently too.

I can imagine her face,
Golden and sweet.
Her eyes are almond shaped,
Full of dependence and defeat.
Youve finally landed yourself,
Someone you can take care of.
She can dance and laugh,
And sing like a dove.
Shes prettier then me.
Then anyone,
Really.
Just leave me alone,
So I can cope.
It still wont go away though,
Because you arent with me.

I dont know her name,
And neither do I want to.
Instead Ill stay here,
And hope someday youll be here too.
Maybe youll even take my hand,
Kiss me like you used to,
And then tell me that you just simply cant

Youll quit again,
Just like that.
Stop on a dime,
And turn your back.
Youll gain my trust,
And throw it away.
Come and do it now,
I cant wait.
Because I cant stop loving you,
No matter how hard I try.
No matter how many people want me to,
Id rather die.
Because stopping my love for you,
Is like a silent suicide.
Stopping my love for you,
Would be impossible because of its kind.

Its the kind that you cant break,
Cant stop,
Not even with hate.
You cant chop it to pieces,
Or pretend its not real.
Itll bite back harder,
And its teeth are steel.

Please try to understand,
I cant stop now.
Not after the three words,
Oh, how

Dan, you told me.
Remember that day?
You told me youd come back for me,
Never just leave me astray.
That was before,
You knew youd come back.
After you knew that,
You wished you could have taken your words back.
Because they meant too much to me,
Much more then you meant.
You told me youd come back for me,
And your promise you kept.
But when you came back,
You didnt see what you wanted to see.
Instead you just got,
A really good picture of the real me.

But Ill come looking for you one day,
One day Ill find you.
Ill tell you I love you,
And give you the option.
Either you tell me to leave,
And away Ill go.
Or you opt for me to stay,
Even though

She has your baby,
With another on the way.
You wanted to have a family with her,
Thats how much you wanted me to stay.
Through and through,
You love me more.
More then the dove,
That just flew of your pedestal.

Even though I doubt that will be,
The one that you choose,
Its nice to dream about
It seems to be the only thing,
That pulls me through.