Afraid?!

Lost in my selfish pity, my unconditioanl love for the one I can't obtain... who won't keep his love close if there is that sort of illusion...
the illusion of love just like the illusion of my happiness that I fool you all with...

& there he came to my rescue, just like in the fantasy world.. healed my pain... and became my only comfort...

Now here he is an arm stretch away yet I can't manage to grasp him...
he's all I want in that illusion of love... but this pain still lives on...,he blended right into my mist of confusion, created another riddle to solve, his mind.. a puzzle, i try to put the pieces together, but its a trap for another heart break... another blade... another scar....