Never let go

I hate every smile you gave me
i hate the look in your eyes
i hate how you laughed
i hate everything about you

most of all i hate myself
for never telling you
for losing you
for letting everything remind me of you

i hate your voice
how you say hello
i hat your knees
for letting you fall into my arms

most of all i hate myself
for loving you
for hiding it
for letting go of you

i hate how i left you
i hate how close we were
i hate how much of you i miss
i hate not being there for you

most of all i love you
for your laugh, smile and eyes
for you voice your lips and hands
next time you fall i will never let go