Guide Me, Ana

Shivering and cold, fragile and weak
Used to be strong, now become meek
Aching with hunger, but can't eat now
Ana tells me to be strong, not sure how

Hair's gone dry, face become so pale
Ana whispers, "Don't you dare fail,
Stop thinking of food, not allowed that
Why? You're already disgustingly fat."

Eyes have lost their shine, now so dull
Hardly eat, yet always uncomfortably full
Exercise has become my favorite past time
Eventually, a beautiful body WILL be mine

My nails have become brittle, hair falling out
Used to be confident, now full of doubt
Friends now noticing, telling me to finally eat
Ana whispers, " It's you they want to defeat."

Telling them I'm not hungry, ate earlier today
Their eyes narrowing with each word I say
Ana cooes, "They just want you to be fat
Don't let yourself be tempted by that."

"They're all against us, so only trust me
Look deep in that mirror, take a look and see
Flesh spilling from everywhere, disgusting fat
Only I can make you something other than that."

"But I've lost ten pounds in just two weeks,"
"Close your mouth, don't even dare speak
Ten isn't enough, know you want to be thinner
So listen to me, I'll make you a winner."

Feeling so weak, always dizzy and I shake
Yet Ana says, "Stop now and it's a mistake
Stop thinking about food, you know it's wrong
Don't betray me, you promised to be strong."

"Remember when you played with fire
Taught you a lesson, introduced you to Mia
Coughing up blood as you fought for breath
Heart beating fast, feeling you were near death."

"Do you want that again? 'Cause that's what I'll do
May think I'm harsh but I'm just trying to help you
Remember you came to I, not the other way around
So take a deep breath, and wipe away that frown."

Trying to ignore the hunger, tears and crippling pain
Voices yelling in my head, making me feel so insane
"I'm sorry for being weak Ana, please don't leave
It's just that sometimes it's so difficult to breathe."

"Darling, that's to be expected, so don't despair
Didn't anyone ever tell you, that life isn't fair?
If you want to be beautiful, then follow my lead
Show some self control, curb your horrid greed."

"Ana, I know you're only looking out for me
And no more will I wallow in self pity and misery
Promise that no no more food will touch these lips
Fat will start to disappear from my thighs and hips."

"There's a good girl, show your self control
Hand yourself over, let me have your soul
Now you must start exercising all day long
Prove to me, that you really can be strong."

"Oh Ana, all I want is to finally make you proud
Be so thin that I stand out from every crowd
I wont let you down again, make me a shining star
Ana, together I know that we can make it far."