Locked away

A faded smile. A long lost joy. A dying heart, a crying soul.
A tampered childhood. A deprived life. A worn out will. With a destroyed life.
Lingering pain from every damaging memory.
Blood spilled deep from my torn wounds.
Another person I want to be.
A better life with you and a diffrent me.
An angst for what I've become,
A single tear for all I've done wrong.
Redemption is not what life has for me.
Falling further down this rabbit hole, failing eternally.
Lacerations on my wrists visible to only me.
Trying to end this life...I guess we will have to wait and see.