Breaking the Habit

All thoughts consumed
By the vicious habit
Of wanting to die,
Of wanting out of it.

Disagreeing ideas
Clash subconsciously.
Unable to move on,
Living unconsciously.

I don't want to die,
But I can't shake the thought.
Beating my mind
To apply what I was taught.

Trying to end it
But unable to succeed.
Maybe professional help
Is what I really need.