Numb

I sit, elbows on my knees
while the water beats on my back
as I cry too many hopeless tears
trying to get my life back on track

And the water, it burns
but its shockingly cold
I cannot feel a thing
I should have listened to what I was told

Now time is becoming unfathomable
its slowly slipping away
I've been here for merely an hour
it feels like its been all day

With every painful teardrop
and every silenced stutter
his voice is becoming more distant
which now I can barely utter

I am longing for his touch;
or a glimpse of his face
looking back on all of these memories
that I just can't seem to erase

I'm lying now
my back on the ground
I feel a bit better
is this peace that I've found?

but in a matter of seconds
its already gone
will things always be this hopeless,
each day; dusk till dawn?

Silence is all that I want now
in this blistering cold air
My eyes; above my shoulders
upon the raindrops that I stare

Give me a second to remember
the crazy things that we do
things that don't make sense
when its just me and you

We beam when we're mad
smile when we're sad
laugh at our problems
so we never feel bad

You've taught me that I
don't have to feel
all the sad thing in this world,
they don't have to seem real

You made me feel safe
like nothing... no one could touch me
how was I to know you'd be that someone
how was I supposed to see?