The Walls

by JustKristina   Oct 18, 2007


All She has to say
Is get downstairs,
And my heart goes wild,
Wild with fear.

I walk down the stairs,
Stairs that lead to pain.
These stairs have marks in them
Marks deeper than a scratch.

I try to remain calm,
Calm is not a word.
Not a word I could accomplish.
Not when She was around.

I want out of this God,
Out of this anguish, this pain.
But not even God can hear,
Hear what happens downstairs.

The walls are the only ones,
That know my secrets.
Because they listen
Listen, as I talk to them.

Dawn is nearing now.
Dawn...all the colors.
Red...the color of brick.
Red...the color of blood.

I hear Her steps.
As She creeps down the stairs.
I ready myself for the pain.
The pain, only She can bring.

She enters the basement.
And a blanket of darkness hides her face.
Her face that holds a smile,
A smile, not from happiness.

Her steps get closer,
And I can smell her breath.
Her breath that has been the same.
Since I was born.

God, are you sleeping?
Maybe God hates me too.
Hates me because I talk to the Walls,
More than I talk to him.

She stares at me with those eyes,
Eyes that once looked like mine.
But now they have changed
And are bearing into my soul.

A tear slips out,
Out from my swollen eyes,
As she pushes me again,
And again into the Walls.

I try to figure out,
Who this person really is.
Maybe there is a nicer person,
Underneath Her mask.

I close my eyes,
Eyes that have seen so much,
Much more than a normal kid.
Much more than a normal person.

What was it like before,
Before I was ever born?
Who did she hurt then?
Only the Walls know.

She moves closer to me.
Why me? What did I do?
I back into the Walls.
Walls that now prevent me from leaving.

She shoves me playfully.
Like when we used to play Monopoly.
But now I am the one,
The one that goes to jail.

I know what comes next,
A violent shove into the Walls.
The Walls that are my journal.
My journal, no one can ever read.

I reach for something,
Something to keep me standing,
Before I fall.
Fall into the arms of fate.

I reach out for the Walls,
The Walls are damp.
Damp with tears.
Maybe the Walls are crying,
Crying with me.

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  • 16 years ago

    by Kittens Poems

    This poem really touched me. I hope this really isn't the way you live. If so, please tell someone, nobody should have to live with such abuse. I was there once myself, but I am older and wiser now.

  • 16 years ago

    by BlueEyedMystery

    I am really loving your poems. They are amazing..

    This was so sad, yet intriguing. I love how you worded the poem. I can explain it, but it was very unique. I liked the metaphores and how you kept talking about the walls. You are definitely going on my favorites!

    Cayce xx

  • 17 years ago

    by Men

    It's a good poem but it was also quite lengthy however it took me a while to understand fully overall it was a great piece of work 4/5 good job!

  • 17 years ago

    by abcede

    Umm yea that was really awesome and intense!!! i loved it!!! OOMMGG!!!! even though it didn't rhyme or flow like perfectly well or whatever, the whole idea of what you were saying really shined through the diction!! 5/5 - you hit this one on the head of a nail

  • 17 years ago

    by xxSuicidalxx

    Beautifully written poem...very full of emotion and sad and lonely. Great details and imagery! Keep up the good work!

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