Stare as the red from my veins cry

Why does it happen, why does it go
why does it seem like my heart is so slow
Why don't you talk, why don't you speak
why does a glance make me feel weak

My wall of willpower is falling down upon me
"I want to die" echoes in my head strongly
Each step I take is harder than the last
painfully reminiscing on the times that have passed

Every yesterday seems better than tomorrow
every new day brings more sorrow
I don't know what to do, I'm down and out
what used to be confidence is now instead doubt

I don't wanna go, and I don't wanna stay
I don't wanna deal with another goddamn day
I'm done with it all, I just can't cope
I'm leaving this place that has no hope

Endless misery, bottomless apathy
words that are synonymous with me
I just can't stand it, I can't keep going
I'm ending it, this blood won't stop flowing

I'll bleed out, bleed until I run dry
stare at the red that my veins cry
exultation, simultaneous self execution
I know where I'm going, there's no retribution

Darkness fading in
existence fading out
I know this was right
without a goddamn doubt