Why did you go?

I wandered down the street,

Wishing you'd be there waiting for me,

God, I can't wait to see you again,

You're my best friend ever,

In the entire existence of the universe,

I love you so much...

I love being with you,

I love the way you walk, talk, and act,

No one will ever be any better,

You're the best.

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I reach the end of the road.

I see you, your back facing me.

"Were you waiting long?" I asked.

You ignored the question and turned to me.

Your exact words were, "I've found better people."

I stood in shock, waiting, wanting to be pinched.

This had to be a dream...

It has to be...

Please, oh God, let this be a dream...

You walked over to me.

Your hand swiped across my face.

Painfully. Intentionally.

Waiting for the second hit, I shed a tear.

I thought you were there for me.

I thought you cared.

I thought you loved me.

I thought wrong.

I felt your second hit to my other cheek.

Twice as painful. Even more intentional.

"I hate you."

I wish you were here today for me to say something I want to tell you.

I...

I...

Love you.

I could never hate you.

I would never leave your side unless you told me to.

You've told me many times to this day, "go away."

Go away, I repeat to myself.

I want you here.

I want you to see me.

I want you to see what you've done to me.

I need you.

I care for you.

I love you.

Please, won't you love me?

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I shed blood and tears for you.

Why don't you care?

I cried each day for you.

Why weren't you there?

I want you here in my arms.

Why can't you be here?

I want you to love me,

Just as I have loved you.

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There's only one thing I hate about you.

I hate the way...

I hate the way...

I hate the way I don't hate you.