I dont understand.

You don't really know what you've got 'till its gone,
It's been 12 years. Damn! It feels so long,
Since I... had a father. Why did you have to go?
Now I'm... stuck in this world and I will never know,
Why you... left us to suffer all on our own.
I wish you could see us into what we have grown.

We moved on, same shit, just a different occasion,
I keep getting hurt my heart is full of abrasions.
Now it's hard to have my trust,
Afraid that I'll be left in the dust.

Did you really think a bullet would solve it all?
Now when I think of you, it's into tears I fall.
I remember all the times we used to have fun.
You pulled the trigger now it's all over and done.

Not all scars show, not all wounds heal,
Sometimes people don't see the pain that I feel.
You left my life without saying goodbye,
Now I'm here wondering why you wanted to die.