Need A realise

I need a break
from this ache
to help me
get through
Will drugs help
maybe beer
or will
cutting do
Can't act happy
It has gone to far
sick of pretending
tired of being broken and
having to keep bending
Should i get high
Could i get drunk
Will it make me
forget?
Should i die
And forget this life
of all my stupid
regrets?
Tired of trying
and slowly dying
I desparetly need out
I need answers
I need relief
maybe i need help....
Problem though
I dont know where to get drugs
I have never taken a drink
I can't numb the pain
I can't even think
Maybe I'll try
to die