A Painful Farewell(Trouble Letting Go)

The events of that night linger in my head,
looking back and punishing myself over things I should have said,
knowing they would have made no difference in the long run.

Holding back tears trying to be strong for you,
dying in our last moments together.

Hugging you and wanting so badly to never let go,
examining you closely painting a mental picture,
wanting to stay lost with you in that evening forever.

Walking away waiting for you to ask me to stay,
slow strides as I watch you run out of my life.

Gasping for air while my lungs cave in on me,
telling myself I wont cry.

Gravity tugging at me trying so hard to force me down,
I stand tall tears streaming down my face,
telling myself I have to be strong.

Now here I lay,
images of the past floating through me almost three years later.

I can still feel the warmth of your breath on my neck,
Holding me tightly as if you're scared to let go.

I play it over and over in my head,
telling myself it's over,
we're through,
we're dead.

Wishing for one last kiss,
one more warm embrace.

Wanting so badly to hear your voice,
and just one more opportunity to say ...
"I love you!"