Definitely a confusing situation and you let it out well. I can relate, and often feel like writing it down just like this, maybe i should. Good job in expressing your emotions. the only part that didn't make sense to me was illusions in delusions, because they're virtually the same thing, so that part sounded kinda forced to me, but other than that, nice job!
*ME*

Ow sori bout dat..wasnt able to change it when im editing...thanks a lot..