The words stumble over each other in a bid to be free.
I'm confused about how to express myself.
What I do know for a fact, is that I'm happy without you.
But still...
Should I mind that your interest has diverted?
Should I care that you aren't looking my way?
Should it bother me that you want her now?
The answer should be no, shouldn't it?
I will never admit to missing you.
For it's not even you that I crave. It's 'that'.
The security. The warmth. The camaraderie.
Not you as a person.
I will never let my words be interpreted.
I am foolish for even allowing myself to feel these things.
I won't allow outsiders to see my heart.
Least of all you.
Opinion after opinion alter my perceptions.
My head is screaming 'let it go'.
My heart is employing me to move.
But all the while, my soul is telling me that I'm better than all this.
Truth be told, I am content.
I am at ease with my situation.
I am living my life with freedom and glee.
I only wish you the same.
So if you will, do pursue this girl, but guard your heart.
Try to not dive in eager and reckless again,
Don't be played the fool, dear boy.
I only hope she can give you what I couldnt.
