Why didn't i tell you

As i lay in bed
thinking of the day, i met u
feeling all fuzzy.
blushing
started to smile again
started to live, again
having this weird sensation
about you and me
day that end
was when u went away
...i thought...(sigh)
i thought you were here to stay..
we had our laughs and jokes
silly plays and having fun days
you walked out of class
hoping u wud turn n call to me
call to me to come with you
as u knew me...i was shy,
i thought of running out the door
and tell u to stay
i thought and thought and ready to run
but i stayed
some stupid mistake.
dang, why didn't i run
why didn't i speak
why didn't i show more affection.
your my missing piece to my
impossible puzzle.
why didn't i tell you
i love you
what?!..love you??
is that what it is LOVE?
that word...huh
its feels weird
what does it mean.??
well watever it is
i just lost that chance to tell him
wanting him in my arms again.
seeing his face, feeling his hand
hearing his voice
that soothes my body and soul
just wished i ran out that door
into your arms
telling you not to go
stay with me....
here beside me.......why
why didn't...(sigh)
derek why didnt i tell you
.....i love you.....