The Power of Control

They'll never understand
The power I feel
When I've conquered my hunger
And denied another meal

My body doesn't change
No matter how few bites I take
Bu then there's honestly no sense
In eating that piece of cake

I'm already always tired
No matter how I rest
So why give into craving?
I'm right here, at my best

My stomach won't stop growling
But people never hear
I try to always make sure
They aren't ever that near

At lunch I am not eating
But I use my age-old excuse
"I forgot my lunch at home"
And on goes the ruse

Some people have no idea
Honestly have no clue
Why I do it to myself
And reasons there are few

It gives me control
Over myself at least
If not the chaotic world
I'll push away the feast

But I know it's all alright
It will always be OK
Even if I slowly fade
That's for another day

I doubt they'll even miss me
What have I ever done
To make them remember someone like me
The day that I am gone

No, this is all for the best
For me to just grin and bear
The weight of all my power
Because no one will ever stare

Maybe someday things will change
But that's all so far away
So for now I'll just cease to be
And lose myself in the fray