Determined, independent, strong

I used to sit there waiting
Just waiting for your call
I used to sit there watching
Just encase you fall
But now all I do is sit there
Silent on my bed
Looking at your letters
And wishing I were dead
I’d sit there with all the time I had
With tears upon my eyes
I used to sit there silently
And all I’d do is cry
Around you I’d act different
Act as if I had no pain
I used to act so horrible
I was your every shame
But now I have grown fonder
I ran out of tears to cry
I no longer wake up crying
Wishing that I’d die
Because I know that it’s not my fault now
I know I did nothing wrong
That is why I’m writing this
Determined, independent, strong