Dead Inside

Holding my breath

Hoping i'll just disappear

I await my death

Which i hope is somewhere near

Feels like there's no one out there

No one who understands me

They just see the outside

And think im happy

But on the inside

All my organs are melting

My heart is decaying

Nothing is living.

Except for the fake smile

I put on show for everyone

And inside, that smile is upside down.

Because inside, I'm gone