Why did yew leave me?

Not a day goes by were i dont think of you
i remember every word you said
and everything little thing that you would do,
i miss the way we talked
and just bummed around the house,
miss the nights drinking
when there was no one else around
i thought that you were finally happy
when you rang me that last time,
a couple days later
i realized that it was a mime
i loved you with all my heart,
you were my best friend
did you even think about me
when you tied that noose around you neck
i cried for days,
and cut for months,
i re-live your death everyday
it feels like a must,
i wish thinks would change and i could bring you back
but would you be happy
or is that what you would lack?
is it any of my fault why you died that night
was i never there?
how come these questions i ask myself
are the answer that i bare!
i love you chook i told you a long time ago
but maybe my love wasnt enough
as you had to go!
forever sorry i was not the perfect friend,
sorry i couldnt understand,
but in this time i need you most,
i cant see you smile,
if i keep missing you like this
i will be there with you in a short while!

i love chooka forever and always