Beyond help

Lost in confusion,
illusions and such,
the obvious dillusion,
its all too much,
i wish i had someone,
i could confide in,
so i wouldn't always,
have to hide it,
the situation,
leads to agitation,
progresses to aggravation,
and ends all motivation,
I'm sitting sideways,
and upside down,
I'm in a world,
where souls are found,
i look at my reflection,
i stand beside myself,
I'm beyond repair,
I'm beyond help...