The confessions of a broken heart

You look at me and say
all those hateful things
talk of how I'm crazy
and how I'm just a kid

you say i need attention
that I'm crying out for help
truth is you don't know
all the reasons why i yell

its been about 2 years
since my best friend left my side
since mommy didn't care no more
since my daddy dyed

its been about a lifetime
I've spent trying to forget
by doing all those drugs
and cutting up my wrist

and you don't know how it feels
to know that your alone
to have to sleep outside all night
cause you don't have a home

you cant imagine whats its like
to lose the only one who cared
to lose a daughter to your mom
who pushed you down the stairs

you have no clue what i think
what goes on inside my head
to you i am a broken teen
to my family i am dead

sometimes it just gets to hard
to hold in all the tears
I've kept myself locked up to long
for way to many years

and now I'm reaching out
cause i was told its not to late
but you never will treat me rite
for you think I'm insane

and perhaps it may be true
just for random thoughts
how many time have you been raped
and the rapist never caught

how many drugs have you done
because you cant help but miss him
how many time have you cried out
but nobody would listen

I'm not saying that I'm broken
no I'm sure i could be fixed
but don't tell me that I'm crazy
you don't know the half of it

my best friend took away
my one and only love
then the guy i called my brother
got locked up over drugs

mommy moved out
when i was only 13
i grew up all by myself
are you getting what i mean

i am not a child
and i don't take this light
but I'm doing what i can
I'm putting up a fight

I'm holding on to hope
that one day I'll wake up
from this dream i cant get out of
its a nightmare and I'm stuck