Broken inside

I miss being happy everyday,
I miss smiling in that silly way.
I miss feeling joy, happieness and love,
I miss staring stupidly at the sky above.

You can't love with a broken heart,
Mine was busted from the start.
It hurts so much this burning pain,
It burns me from the inside, like a flame.

I broke the promises I made to myself,
I broke the feeling that made me melt.
I broke it all but never a bone,
I boke my family, now I have no home.

You can't dry my crying eyes,
You'll never imagine the pain I feel inside.
Remembering the things I long to forget,
This is as bad as life gets.

I lost all my good memories,
I lost people who acted friendly.
I lost my life, in a flash,
I lost it all, then it hit me like whiplash.

My friend says i push him away,
He says I'm really messed up somedays.
I know what he is saying is true,
he is helping me make it through.