I turn to you to smile, but quickly i turn back again
i can't follow that path once more, not ever
all the beautiful lies you fed to my heart
i loved it, i needed it, i wanted you forever
you filled my empty palletes to the brim
i numbed myself over, and lusted for just one more
i thought i could hold back this time
but my hands had no strength against yours.
you walked along beside me, every single day
but you never walked on the same dirt
my footprints were leading me to a break in the road
i was oh so naive, and you always knew it would hurt
i dropped my time into your box to let you use
i just showed up whenever you'd please
but your voice never opened my doors, not once
not when i needed you, not when i was on my knees
with touches that could melt an autumn day
closed rooms can hide my secrets only so well
when nudging turns to shoving and screaming
it's just too hard, my loss begins to swell
i'd disregard any lost feeling of comfort
if only my heart would let go of its memories
i'll cover those empty spots where your love used to be
they'll never disappear but i hide them easily.
