My Last One (A Poem Goodbye)

by Hannah Mhairi   Oct 27, 2007


I've barely coped up 'til now,
but I can't carry on anymore,
Whether God is ready for my death or not,
I'm closing my own door.

God has been so mean to me,
Foiled so many of my suicides,
This will be number thirty four,
I only hope this time I die.

I don't care what happens to me,
If I did I'd live,
Even though I'll be letting them down,
I don't really give.

Dad's dying anyway,
My sister's engaged,
There's just no room for me,
A screwed up teen with too much rage.

I've planned my funeral,
And made my unofficial will,
I only hope that I don't wake up,
Stuck with me still.

As I write this I'm drinking,
Swallowing pills galore,
And hopefully soon I will be,
Dead on my bedroom floor.

My wrists are bleeding,
My mind isn't all there,
My stomach is hurting badly,
And my family are watching unawares.

Please, all pray for me,
That I will die tonight,
Because I've never succeeded at anything before,
Try hard as I might.

Good........night.

"Just thought I'd let any1 know that I'm now awake
that was number 34 (like I said) and now I have a (four letter word) bad headache, one sore stomach and plasters covering my wrist. attempting suicide but not actually committing it really puts you of doing it again doesn't it?"

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  • 15 years ago

    by wolfschild

    I know how you feel and you would think failing once would put you off but i keep running at the door to my life trying to force it shut...
    lighter note: GREAT poem looks like you have finished something and won my praise!!!

  • 17 years ago

    by retro babii

    Personally when i read a poem like this i dont really no wt 2 say...i mean the poem is the best ive read yet, but to say great poem feels weird...as if im telling you to try again......so basically i think your really talented and i love this poem, but PLEASE DONT TRY AGAIN (not my choice but your life is more important than how it feels right now) hope you are happier :)

  • 17 years ago

    by xxSuicidalxx

    Awww...that is so sad. I hope you feel better....this poem flowed with emotions, and i could actually feel your pain....beautiful job on this! Hope you feel better!!!!!
    5/5