Pretty enough for you now?

My hair used to be brown
my eyes dark blue
i felt good about myself
until i met you
it was love at first sight
i was too blind to see
id give anything for you
you'd give nothing for me
id keep your photograph in my pocket
so you were with me everyday
little did i know, id soon
let my sanity slip away
i saw the girls you talked to
the blonde's with makeup covered faces
the ones with the painted on smiles
prim and perfect, no flaws or traces
you'd pass me in the hallway
id say "hi" to you and smile
you would leave me without notice
you didn't care all the while
you wanted perfect all along
thats exactly what you got
i did so much for you
but you weren't at all what i thought.
i got the courage to tell you
to get out how i felt
i was humiliated by you, instead
like a candle left to melt
i went home and dyed my hair Blondie
changed my eyes to a lighter shade
bought bright and expensive makeup
you had left my heart as a spade
i tried again to tell you
just how much you meant to me
you laughed in my face and walked away
you told me it would never be
i felt like a worthless fool
my heart now torn in two
you meant everything to me
and i meant nothing to you
your photographs ripped and scattered
my blood across the floor
the wounds bled away all of the pain
you were the cause for every sore
i grabbed the gun and aimed it
at my fake, Blondie covered head
i had no reason to live
i was better off dead
it only took a second
i pulled the trigger fast
it was pointless to ever think
that my love for you could last
I'm sure its all over the papers
I'm sure you all wonder "how?"
lying in the floor, covered in my blood
am i pretty enough for you now?