No Idea

No idea who I am,
Going out of my mind,
Can't let it go,
Leave it all behind.

Feel so useless,
I just can't explain,
The words are eating me,
Trapped by my pain.

And I'm trying,
But I'm caught in my past,
Tangled in this web,
Hoping it won't last.

Because I'm going crazy,
Thoughts are taunting me,
And inside I've broken,
Lost in what I see.

Can't explain the extreme hurt,
That's eating me up inside,
I'm ignoring the night,
That my soul died.

Just can't face it,
Nobody really knows,
Holding it in,
As the intensity grows.

And so many memories,
Etched inside forever,
Won't let me be,
Nor mend myself together.

And every breath I take,
Seems wasted on me,
Everyday I wake,
I wish I was free.

No fake illusions,
But fake smiles and growing fears,
Falling even more,
Drowning in my tears