Will it go away?

What have i done?
im running in tracks of the forsaken,
climbing walls of despair,
swimming in waves of insanity,
working for fruitless labour
for faceless beings i know not of...

i can feel them in my veins,
the anger rising in me like a fire
my fury like a beast with venom and teeth and claws
i want to attack, rip and kill...
what have i done?

im trapped in a prison,
made by the hands of depression
it has stolen away my hope
which it claimed as its only friend
i start again, thinkin that today it will end
but it never does..

look what you have allowed!
you let me get me....
and now look what i have done...
watching those who taste freedom is agonising
barbed sadistic motions of those who can smile
never knowing just what its like to crave defective release

If i fall it doesnt matter,
There's everyone to watch you
but no one to care...
Seeing untouchable joy, love and happiness,
Another price that you pay for being you...

I wish I could get help...
I wish it would go away...
i want to exorcise these demonds that talk to me,
maybe they will leave me one day?