For the first time.
I'm happy,
i don't remember, the last time this happened,
i never imagined happiness was sadness,
but good.
I've tried alcohol, chocolate and even
the rare failed attempt at suicide,
to get what i feel now,
none of these good things happened when i cried,
but now i realize,
my life is better than that,
suicide how could i have tried?
chocolate, whilst good,
too much is putting more on you,
and alcohol, the worst of all!
it only gives the same felling I've had, depression.
thats what it is,
makes you sad,
the numbness, you can't control,
worse and worse,
all you can do is sit and watch,
watch your life falling into sadness,
terrorizing, threatening life itself,
but i am happy,
my life, my soul,
strengthening,
till its strong,
up to everything,
belief, happiness,
i am me!
i love it
