Hate/love

Do i love you?
Do i hate you?

I hate the pain you've caused me
and the tears you made me cry
The sleepless night's because of you
when i just want to curl up and die

Love you because of how happy you made me
and all the great times we shared
The good in life you made me see
and the tender way you cared

So confused by the love/hate i feel
don't know what to do for the best
Do i accept this love is not real
and finally lay these emotions to rest?