What happened?

I said i love you thinking you loved me back.
i said i miss you thinking you missed me just as much.
everyday i think of you thinking why did he let me fall.
everyday i think how is she much better then me?
days go by but still no sleep cause your always on my mind.
weeks go by, i wanna die.
your the reason i wanted to go to school so when the time came i could see you again.
you were the smile on my face
you were the sparkels in my eyes
you were also the warm tears falling from my blue eyes.
why did i think things would be different this time around?
why did i think you acuttaly cared when you called me just to say hi?
why did you lie to me?
id rather hear the truth then be lied too.