Demons inside

Ive written songs that no one will hear
my words will never be sung
to show my true self is one of my fears
no one can know what Ive become
i don't know who i am am unless I'm hiding
from myself in a place where no one can go
so these words i will keep writing
clad in anonymity so that they will never know
in the real world i cant say whats inside me
you have to act and be a certain way
cant show any feelings or let people get near me
because after time they only go away
everything in my life after time loses its appeal
my world has become so dark
so i try as hard as i can to see whats still real
still searching for that spark
i question my life and why i am here
would it be better if is was dead
why do i live everyday of my life in fear
must i constantly have this dread
one day i know that it will all be changed
where, when and for how long i don't know
the demons inside have made me deranged
i long for the day when my suffering will go