I need him here for me
i need him right next to me
for me without him i can't get through all this
my cousin died a couple days ago
and know when i'm alone
i can't do anything
because all i can think about is jay
i never though i would lose someone this way
at this time
i can't concentrate
i feel like i haven't slepted in days
even though i have slepts for hours
my eyes feel like there burning for holding back tears
that i should shed
that i don't want to shed
i don't want to cry
even though im told its better for me
im asked why im afraid to cry
well i honestly don't know
i did cry but i don't want to any more
i just don't
i need more sleep
and time alone
i need dalton, eleanor, and others that are my friends
exept for one
i need help moving on
because im stuck here in the mean time
in this depression
this sadness
please help me
