Not My Type!

All that I knew has now left me, All that I said disappeared.
All that my heart used to hold is now empty, this is what I feared.
Everyday is a continuous struggle, My hearts been through this before.
All these feelings and thoughts inside me is what I can not ignore.

I can't explain what I'm trying to say, I suppose I'm rambling on.
But inside I'm so hollow, inside I am dying I need you to know that I'm done.
Done with this life that I'm living, Done with everything that you've said.
My heart can't take hold of this burden,I rather lay down forever dead.

Sleeping so peacefully I watch you, wondering if you know that I know.
I had forgiven you for the 1st time, then for the 2nd I had to let you go.
Refusing the truth you're lying to yourself, you've become your own foe.
I had fallen for your sweet charms, You turned out oh, so very low.

Right now I linger in my house, It has almost been one painfull year.
Your memories still decieve me, For you I still seem to shed a tear.
I smile as though nothings happened, tears well up from the inside.
It wasnt your duty to hurt me, You just had to take me for a ride.

You laugh at the whole situation as though I was a puppet for you show.
Pulling my strings as I'm screaming, I never wanted you to go.
Though now that your gone I am happy, otherwise I wouldn't be who I am today.
So I thank you I know this may sound queer but your not my type anyway...

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By Emily Lucas - Don't ask about the ending, I kinda have writers block so I was stumped about what to write =P xxx