Mom, im sorry.

Dear mom.

I know you must have heard me when you dropped me off that day.
Though my smile said forgiveness.
My heart screamed for me not to go away.
The moments we had together
The laughter and the smiles that I remember..
Are the things that Im going to be missing forever
Secrets we shared and the problems we solved
will finally be untold..

Theses are some things you would tell me
to do but, I never would listen to you.
When you go out on a date don't come home
late. Clean up your room and, do it real soon.
Turn down the radio I don't like that tune.
So mother theses things I didn't do.
Doesn't mean I didn't love you.
You treated me like I was just there.
you acted like you didn't care what I wanted to do.
You still don't see that with you is were
I wanted to be. you hurt me so bad and now I am mad.
mom did you love me.
did you care?
did you even know I was there?
Even when its not easy to see,
You're my best friend.
With no end.

I'm sorry I couldn't fulfill your dreams
Even more sorry that they weren't my own
You say I'm just too immature
You fail to see how much I've grown
Listen, I know I'm not perfect
I know I'm not the best
I also know there's no pleasing you
I was doomed to fail your test.

Why didn't you try to get me back after I left?
Do you really don't care?
That night was the worst night in my life
All I ever wanted was you to say that your sorry
But your to proud to say that
I forgot
your never wrong and you never make mistakes
It was only me
Guess what, there are always 2 people for a fight
But you will never change and this time I won't apologize first.

So many mistakes,
I'm always falling down,
I keep trying harder, but it's in my tears
that I seem to have drowned.
All the lies I have told, and the promises unfulfilled,
Always letting you down,
it's your heart I've probably killed.
That's all I do, is let you down,
and cause you pain,
that you never could've known.
Every time I try to do something right,
it always turns out wrong.

All I do is tare our family apart,
With my choices, my mistakes, and my opinions.
I dont bring us closer. I get blamed for everything when Im around.
I dont see why you want me home. When Im home we dont spend time together.
Then we always fight about something, each and everyday.

Yes mom, I made mistakes.
And I regret them everyday.
But everything isnt my fault.
It takes two to make it this way.
I miss the old times.
The ones where we got along.
I miss the times we used to have.
When our relationship was strong.

People always change.
And relationships unwind.
But Ill always be your daughter.
Youll always be on my mind.